who ever thought that being a social butterfly would make you feel like a goddamned pariah?

no, that's cruel, it's not that, it's just being too different anymore. getting stupider and more wise to the world, less book smart, more street smart. i'm getting dumber in some respects and it's alienated me.

i miss you, you know. each and every one of you regardless of how you may have made me feel at some point, and regardless of how shitty i may have treated you. nothing is ever one sided.

i don't think it's something we can ever have back, though. we can try but...

who knows. it's not in the cards.

take your success and be happy, i'll take my failures and make the best of it.
i hope, at least, that we're all enjoying life in our own ways! it's all we could ever wish for, happiness despite everything.

i still love you, you know.